You are the glory of God manifest in form
playing at life in what appears to be the norm 
Imagine That !
Supreme awareness 
Pure consciousness 
The normal day to day living 
Going to work 
Responsibility 
Relationship
Accountability

Whatever you see 
you cannot be !
The observed has no power !
no true authority !
You the observer the one who sees
Agrees to the form and say the form is me ....

So you become the story 
The role.... your history 
You create this identity 
and then you say you want to be free ... from what ?
Are you the thoughts you hear?
Are you the emotions you feel?
If they change so rapidly can this be so real ?

Dare to ask the question
You know ... the one that really matters !
Who am I ?
Who am I ?
Who am I?
Then ...and only then will your real journey begin when you dare to dive in deep and really look within ...

But careful now and do be warned this journey is not for the weak 
as you strip yourself bare of every label 
As God destroyed the tower of babel

FAITH ....SURRENDER ...FORGIVNESS...LOVE ...these are the only keys when its time for the ego to flee

The dark night of the soul...

A death may come ... in fact a few 
For as you uncover every little sin ... 

You start to shed your victim skin 
It may just hurt ...
continue through this pain 
You will find you lose yourself 
again and again and again 
until only love remains ...
Keep going....

2018

Leave the door open ....

We all have different beliefs on life, on death, on what happens to us.
Where do we come from?
Where do we go?
Is there life after this glorious show?
Is the birth of a child really the beginning?
Or the death of our loved ones truly an end?
Is life really only three score years and 10?
Are all our thoughts, our dreams, our aspirations bound to a body which turns to dust?
Is this truly the sum of us?
Surely not!

When we are young we don't think in terms of beginnings and ends
we navigate a path with many bends
Yet in our youth we experience the moment trusting how we feel
In our innocence and openness we often see what’s real.
We see great truths bound in nature’s story as the eternal dance of life reveals its glory

My Daughter, Shivaani, once said to me “look at the caterpillar, it doesn't die, it simply changes form”
Conversations like this in our family have always been the norm
Nan, a spiritual woman of passion who refused to conform
And Mum, her Mother’s Daughter, well she was brave and exuded joy from the very day she was born
And I myself remember saying at the innocent age of seven, i'm not my body, I’m not my mind,  I cannot die
Surely I do not cease to exist ...this is just a lie!

And so these discussions were early explorations followed indeed by many personal revelations
These came for me in my most difficult time
When Mum, Nan’s daughter fell seriously ill in 1999
Our uncle Stephen sat with me
As I preceded to question our mortality
He gave me books and shared stories of old
Encouraging me to be bold
We reflected on the wisdom of the saints who looked beyond the physical world

And so Nan and I would spend many a night with a glass of wine
Pondering love, life, death and the very nature of time
For Nan, the fear of losing her Daughter and myself the Mother to whom none could compare
Our conversations bought us closer together as we were able to share
To share our love, to share our fears
To embrace one another and shed our tears

And as is so often when life deals a harsh blow
We were forced to go deeper within ourselves
To consider life without the ones we love
To consider what it is we really lose
To consider our beliefs
To really consciously choose how we can honour those who have passed
How we make sure their love will last ...in us ...

And now as Nan goes to be with our Mum, her Sister and all whom she loved who have passed before
I find myself in that place once again
Considering amidst the pain
How will Nan’s love remain ..in us

Thanks to Mum, thanks to Nan, I know now in the deepest part of my being that those we love can never be lost
That Whilst we experience the pain of separation and feel as if life can never be the same
That we are connected so deeply to one another that even death is not the end game
For the love that binds us all together
Builds a bridge which can never sever
For this love goes beyond space and time
We can feel it's Rhythm and hear it's Rhyme
And as we connect to this heart space and feel the love inside
We can realise beyond all doubt that this is where nan resides
Feel her presence and know she's here
She wouldn't miss this day
And I believe these to be just a few words she would say

Leave the door open, come and see
I am not gone I am still me
Leave the door open, come and see
I'm no longer in body I'm truly free
Free from sickness
Free from pain
Able to see my Daughter, my Sisters, my Husband again
You may think of the end, I see a new start

If I had a pen, I'd write you each a letter
Encouraging you to always live better
I'd thank you all, for all you gave me 
each in your own individual way
As you know being a woman of words I always have something to say
I'd say Life is for the living!
Keep learning, keep giving
The passion and the glint that you saw in my eye
Is still here, it did not die
So leave the door open, come and see
Mourn for a day then let me be
Don't be troubled now I've moved on
I'm on a new adventure but I am not gone.

Til we meet again

MARCH ON 


In dark times 
BE THE LIGHT 
In dark times 
BE A VOICE 
In dark times 
MAKE A CHOICE ...
To rise above the group ..
The herd mentality 
TO RISE ABOVE 
All you have heard 
All you have seen
All you have been shown 
In dark times 
Gather yourself for what’s in store 
And go deep within to find even MORE STRENGTH
To .....as you put it
FIGHT THE GOOD FIGHT 
in dark times
BE BRAVE 
In dark times
STAND UP AND BE COUNTED 
in dark times move swiftly 
LIKE AN UNBRIDLED HORSE 
UNMOUNTED !
Stay on the path of light 
Stay on the path of faith 
Stay on the path of truth
STAY ON THE PATH OF LOVE 
in dark times
When all seems lost
When the wickedness of man has spread far and wide 
When the suffering of our brothers 
and sisters who’s hands remain tied after 400 years of hate filled lies 
Kept in line... body’s engraved forever  enslaved...
Remains present...
BE MINDFUL 
BE MINDFUL 
That the light that expands beyond this tiny little planet and the great sins of man 
Is far larger 
Far brighter
Far deeper
Than has ever been told in any one story 
In dark times 
STILL LIFT YOUR SOUL AND GIVE GOD THE GLORY 
in dark times 
Fear hate and anger can bind us
In dark times 
The sins of omission can find us
Weak and disempowered .
People give in 
Fearful angry and overwhelmed 
The zealous change little 
Or distracted consumed with the mundanities of life....blind to the suffering of our fellow kin 
Stuck in a cycle of consumerism 
In dark times 
OPEN YOUR HEART WIDER
In dark times 
OPEN YOUR INNER EAR
to hear the wisdom from the ancients 
The ancestors and wise sages
The voice of love that transcends all ages 
In dark times
BE THAT VOICE THAT SPEAKS OF LOVE
BE THAT VOICE THAT SPEAKS  OF UNITY
BE THAT VOICE THAT SPEAKS OF TRUTH
BE THAT VOICE THAT SPEAKS OF COMMUNITY 
SPEAK OF THE JOURNEY OF THE WOUNDED  SOUL WHO DESPITE ALL SUFFERING STILL REMAINS WHOLE !!
 in dark times 
EXPAND 
in dark times 
DEMAND TO BE HEARD 
The fear filled narrative has had its time 
We are not here SUBMIT  or to TOW the line !
So yes
in dark times 
 STAND UP AND MARCH 
AND WITH EACH STEP YOU TAKE 
LET THE EARTH FEEL YOUR FEET
LET HER RISE UP AND GREET YOU 
DRAW ON THE ENERGY THAT 
CAUSED YOUR ANCESTORS  TO SING ....TO DANCE ....TO OVERCOME ....TO MOVE TO THE RHYTHM OF THE ETERNAL DRUM!!
In dark times 
STAY GROUNDED
in dark times 
LET YOUR LIGHT SHINE 
in dark times 
REMEMBER CHANGE CAN COME 
EVEN IF IT BE ONE HEART AT A TIME 

Like yours  ... when you met mine

Ascension

The game of life 
When is life good enough you say ...
Why the drama you say ...
Well.... let me tell you why 
I want to break the mould
Let go of the old 
In this true intention ... sometimes there is chaos 
An uncomfortable space 
Resistance
Crazy projections 
Sickness 
Emotional instability 
As the body adjusts 
To its new capabilities 
As the ego clings 
Pain
Fear 
Yes I shed a tear !
A death !

But there is rebirth !
No hiding spaces 
Labour pains 
They can last a while ! 
When a women gives birth 
Her pelvis can literally crack 
Should she remain politely quiet 
For a pat on the back 
Well done you stayed calm !
Sitting on your lotus flower emanating your healing balm 
No she screams 
She pants 
She moves her body in rhythmic motion 
I  made a LIFE  ! 
I AM LIFE 
It requires a FIRE
It requires COURAGE 
It requires a surrender to a primordial force that cannot be contained in any human who lives to truly come alive 
Not just survive !
I will not be conformed 
I will not apologise for the fire in my belly 
For wanting more passion for wanting  deep union 
For wanting deep communion 
To fill my senses
To feel my body alive 
To awaken to the holy spirit... 
I will not apologise for any part of me that dares ...in this stifling fucking patriarchial society 
to show her face and breath ....life !
I have a voice 
Sometimes I want to scream 
Wake up !
Sometimes on this paradoxical journey to this place where we remain ...looking for a road 
We realise we have travelled far from our abode. Then we look again and realise it isn’t true 
As we truly are the witness of everything we do 
Sometimes in this there is great peace 
At other times 
It seems great release 
Sometimes in this 
There is great hunger passion and fire as the emerging consciousness 
Takes us higher 
It’s not a sweet and simple path 
But worthy all the same 
There is no LIFE in playing safe 
Like a pawn in someone else’s game 
If I’m scared I’m gonna say it 
If I’m vulnerable I show it 
If I’m angry ..  sorry your gonna feel it 
you are on that journey too 
Light and dark 
I’m done with being the good person 
The kind person 
The nice person everyone expects to see ... responsive to every whim 
Draining my energy 
The Essence of all those parts come with ease when I’m truly free ...
I know that YOU SEE...too 

So I’m not trying anymore to impress 
ANYONE ... not even you 
I’m  just going to be me 
if I offend ... so it be 
And all those little pieces that 
Were hidden deep ... I set them free 
When is life good enough you say 
I say every second of every day 
So LIVE IT 
outside of comfort ..
And be it  
Why  the drama ?
Let me say it clearly now 
To emerge from the mundanity 
The sameness... the comfortable dead spaces we create 
The 9-5 
Polite conversations with no life
Television on 
Glued to phones 
Sat on the Xbox ... zoned ...out 
Gone 
 disconnected 
Protected 
From feeling 
Resistant to deep healing 
Distractions 
Reactions 
Addictions 
Flirtations with the passing ...
No conscious intent 
Words that pacify 
Gratify the ego 
Niceties 
No hunger ...no fire for life 
If you want to fall in love with your wife ....everyday 
Take her out of the box you’ve projected 
As I take you out of mine ...
Play 
Meet the new in each other every day 
Every morning 
Search ...look ...inquire 
Pay attention 
Be inspired 
Choose to find your muse ...again ....and again ....and again ....no ending 
Spontaneity... eye contact ...fun ...laughter 
Where have they gone 
As we sleep back to back 
Hoping one day to get back on track 
Why not now 
Right this minute 
Why the fear to say what we feel 
It can’t kill us ! 
Why the resistance 
I can take it 
Your not on a pedestal 
You can’t fall 
I’ll love you no matter what 
It can be no other way 
No matter what you say 
Transformation can come in an instant !
Or is the love gone ..
As you silently judge 
Sat on  your self righteous throne
Alone 
It’s not a nice place to be 
It feels safe but inhibits true intimacy 
I know I go there too 

True intimacy ... what does it mean 
To be intimate and true to self 
True to all parts 
Allowing each their  expression 
Each their confession 

And Some paths have to be walked alone 
You can share a vision and seeds can be sewn 
Yet each ones journey must be their own ...
The journey from the mind to the heart 
Takes a lifetime and a second 
There’s no safe and comfortable spaces when you hunger for true union with God
When you burn like this 
When your whole life freedom has been ringing in your ears 
There is only temporary amnesia
When is life good enough you say
I say 
When we fully awaken 
And not a moment before !

Then we know love that surpasses every tired expectation ...

Leanne 2018

I’m an expansive being you see
I know what it is to be FREE
but I came to this planet 
With the full knowledge 
It might just get a bit  messy 

And messy is sometimes me ....

A poet is never truly free from the human condition of misery !!!

It’s just the way it is you see 
The contrast is a necessity 

To know the prison ........the false identity 
And then to see with the sight of the mystic ....beyond the great sea
To be simply BE

Yes I’m that too ....
I know the width and breadth of love that knows no bounds and has no form 
I know the space that exists within and transcends the day to day norm 
That much is inscribed in my soul
Yet now I’m here playing at becoming whole 

As I experience states of separation 
That are only accessible here 
I break a sweat 
I shed a tear 
I’ve sat crumpled naked in the shower 
Screaming at god in fear 

For The human condition in all its manifest glory is the greatest and yet most tragic story ....

Each life is like a little pen 
Writing their own little chapter in this great book of life 
And God you might say would be the author and the ink ....
And while some little pens write smoothly 
Some sadly sink 


There’s been a few Smudges on the pages of my little book....


Some just make me cringe !
But when I take a second look 
The smudges look like art 
As I look at all those perfect Imperfections 
You know ....the ones that broke my little heart 

I realise that the book of life
Ought not to be a perfectly written manuscript with measured lines to scribe 
But rather full of crumpled pages 
Crossed out blots and missed full stops
And very much ALIVE 
WITH COLOUR !!
Big thick felt tips scrawling across the pages 
Not just the The great and lofty  words of the great and wise old sages 

I came to earth with a bump you see
To touch to taste  to feel !

To fall down 7 times 
Yet still get up 
Get real .....
So my book my story 
Has more than a crumpled page 
It’s filled with every colour and every kind of form 
It’s story is by no means 
An attempt to conform 
To the non attachment rule
Like a disembodied fool...
I’m fully human ...
And I’m afraid No more .

Leanne 2018

I WANT A PLACE

"The real hopeless victims of mental illness are to be found among those who appear to be most normal. "Many of them are normal because they are so well adjusted to our mode of existence, because their human voice has been silenced so early in their lives, that they do not even struggle or suffer or develop symptoms as the neurotic does." They are normal not in what may be called the absolute sense of the word; they are normal only in relation to a profoundly abnormal society. Their perfect adjustment to that abnormal society is a measure of their mental sickness. These millions of abnormally normal people, living without fuss in a society to which, if they were fully human beings, they ought not to be adjusted.

Aldous Huxley, Brave New World

This is for those so called unadjusted souls 
Marginalised by those disguised as Human ...


I want a place ..  
I want a place where the people will come 
I want a place that's warm 
A place where there's a smiling face.... a warm embrace 
A gentle touch that conveys a thousand words ...... in just a moment 
A healing space ...

I want a place where a broken man can rest his head and dream a dream 
A place where a child that has nothing can see their worth 
I want a place where a woman who's face has seen her mans fist a thousand times can look in the mirror and say I'm beautiful 
I want a place where beauty is felt and known  and seen within each  of us ...no matter our age ....race ....gender or body shape ..our mental agility or physical ability ...
I want a a place where the man In a wheelchair can stand tall....
 a place where a young girl can look at her tight curls and brown skin and feel proud ....a place where she is allowed .....to feel enough 
I want a place where the young woman  who's self harmed to ease  her pain can receive a loving touch and for a moment feel sane 
I want a place that offers some space around the thoughts of those unadjusted souls ...who's eyes glazed over have lost their spark .. not through fault of their own ....as society would have us believe in our labelling... our medical curses and various diagnosis ...

I want a place where unadjusted is the norm ...
Where to turn a blind eye and live a self serving life will count no more !! 
Yes ...
I want a place for the refugee, estranged from  his land ,his family ...who watched his baby thrown into the sea ...and has no home ... to know he is  welcome ...even with his mobile phone !!
I want a place where the homeless man can eat until he's  full ... to sit around a table and feel a lessening of a pull ...to medicate ...his fragile mental state ...
I want a place to care for the carer who
has given her all  ...with not a thought for herself...at the expense of her own health 
I want a place where a single mother can be mothered for a moment while her children play safely ...and rest 

I want a place that offers the best ...
The best a human can give ...

With Words that tell another to truly LIVE 

I want a place that says  to those who come with nothing ...you are loved. 

 I want a place where KINDNESS  is the gold standard of care  not a commodity  seen in the eyes when the sniff of the pound is there  .
I want a place free from limited minds ...unkind egoic self seekers
I want a place built on the belief we ARE our brothers keeper


2017

His holiness the Dalai Lama wrote the following

 "All the world’s major religions, with their emphasis on love, compassion, patience, tolerance, and forgiveness can and do promote inner values. But the reality of the world today is that grounding ethics in religion is no longer adequate. This is why I am increasingly convinced that the time has come to find a way of thinking about spirituality and ethics beyond religion altogether".

A wise man of our time!

As a person who has engaged in Christianity yet always reticent to adopt any label I believe Christ as he is personified in the new testament would agree

 He himself a fellow traveller lifted himself beyond the confines of the religion and culture of his time.....clearly understanding his own nature and so pointed a way. There is a wonderful story in the bible where Jesus asks one of his disciples to leave the boat and walk on the water.....I personally equate this to taking a step beyond religion ....the boat being the religion . This is however a great step and a very individual process.....For some the safety of the boat is still needed and indeed helpful...for others not...we are all on a journey

This is written for those whom would claim to have a monopoly on the truth

True hope is placed in things not seen

beyond our visions , beyond our dreams

beyond our cares and worldly affairs

beyond our tears and through our fears

As if children of truth drinking through straws knowing little of the wine our God pours

embodied in flesh, clinging to what we see

and if what we see is taken away

what we believe comes to disarray

We stumble we fall we judge we divide

to prove ourselves right we say others have lied

It is time to go beyond the doctrines of men

From 20th century Pharisees to fishers of men

from the threshing floor to the open door

from the law of Saul to the revelation of Paul

Can we see facets of truth in ALL?

Can we be rooted, immovable and still

centred completely in our higher will?

Can we shed light to the darkest of minds

whilst trusting its God who gives sight to the blind?

Can we let go of what we think we know?

let our minds be renewed as white as snow

Can we radiate knowing and joy through trials?

let our actions be the first to cause others to smile

We live in a time where people must see

this world is transient, yet eternal are we

the image of our maker with divine authority to manifest peace wherever we may be

A social order with no veil of confusion

united hearts can tear down illusion

Love in action is service to mankind

patience and trust transcends the cleverest of minds

So let us not engage in the arguments of men

our actions speak louder when we are loving them

Christ you are indeed a light in our hearts

lets consider your life as a work of art

painted on the walls of eternity

speaking to us all individually........

Leanne

1998

Love is calling ...
Love is always calling...
We are that love...

My question is 
Are we listening ?

Do we sit in front of our TVs
Absolved of all responsibility 
claiming to be happy 
Yet inwardly craving to be free ?

Or do we have the courage to be with our soul and hear the cries ?
To listen , to really listen 
To pay attention and see beyond the lies , the ties and attachments we made when we wade goodbye to innocence, when we were children 
To dive down deep beneath the layers
To weep for what we’ve become ?

Love is calling... 
Love is always calling...
We are that love...

So wake up NOW ....listen ...

Watch your thoughts
they lead to actions 
Rise above your fears 
and self limiting sanctions
let your story go
Think you have nothing to give? 
Wake up NOW and start to LIVE 
Your were not born to be a slave 
To work yourself into an early grave 
To be subjected to the maya of the mind
In reality all thought can potentially bind 

It’s time to break  free from your group ,your class ,your ideas of who your supposed to be
Turn off you phone !
Take your eyes off the tv !
With it's adverts claiming to make you happy 

Stop for a minute 
Just simply BE...

How is a moment of silence for you?
Does it reveal  how distraught you really are ?
Without your distractions, your shiny new car ! 
Can you see ?
or are you unfulfilled ?
With dull eyes closed heart shopping bags and daily drills?
dead dreams
Life without purpose 
Life without love 
With futile hopes for freedom one day 
When you retire to what with your last pay ? 

Come on now 
Don’t be lead by every passing pleasure 
Not everything that glitters is made of Gold 
No prince will come and save the day 
External beauty fades away
Stay with greed 
It will surely make you old
as the yearning for more marks your face with a hunger so apparent when the soul is displaced 


MORE MORE MORE 
Materialism stripping the world bare 
The 1 percent 
Comfortable content
Divide and conquer
An age old tool 
communities split
As we fight amongst ourselves like disembodied fools 
for the scraps at the table 
Forgetting  we are able
To make a change 

Wake up now ...

Love is calling... 
Love is always calling...


We are that love...

Yet we see separation division

war poverty

Rising numbers of homelessness  amongst the most vulnerable

The elderly sleeping on streets

little to eat

children sold as sex slaves

knife crime

kids with knives
suicide

young girls engraved as they cut themselves 

because they hate what they feel inside with no sense of pride for who they are !

Kids with I phones taking selfies

yet to bare the scars of their journey through life

as they see their fears manifest only to test ...their will to LOVE....

their WILL to LOVE....

And we say …it makes no sense ….

We say there is no hope  

We say we have travelled the path to wide…

Let me just seek a little comfort inside

For its too painful to see …

this sickness this poverty with its 
Food banks this Austerity !
I cant even bare to look at me !

Yet look we must and change we must 

For Love is calling... 
Love is always calling...
We are that love...

Don't continue to turn a blind eye 
While children starve and people die 
What will you do when it comes to your door your home? 
For it will just wait 
we are not alone 
A globalised world 
it's there for us to see 
Order from chaos ?
the violence will come 
the storm before the calm 
Are you ready with your 23rd psalm 

You have everything you need ! 
Dig down deep 
See it 
know it 
live it 
feel it 
breath it and 
Take heed! 

I'm seeing raised banners
i'm seeing calls for war 
I'm seeing the crowds a gathering 
for something we've never seen before 
The far right with Salutes at arm 
The left with banners stood to disarm 
Racist ideology born from hate and fear 
It's the 11th hour 
Time is drawing near

Stand yourself up 

Shake the dust down 
Open your hearts wide
To dissolve this great divide
If we stay in our slumber its our own demise 

The path has been laid
DO NOT  be afraid
Stop following the rules
We came to shake up, to redefine 
the herd mentality to the call of the divine 
There's no time to sleep 
No time to ask HOW 
Be ready to SERVE
SURRENDER ...now bow!
Bow to the truth that whispers in YOUR  soul ...
The still small voice within 
That whispers ...

Wake up now! 

Love is calling... 
Love is always calling...
We are that love...

So  don't wait for the day to come 
When mans destruction has blacked out the sun 
Climate change!

the school run not much fun when your kid cant run for the fumes in his lungs.

And that’s if they have the luxury of school
 kids searching daily for food in rubbish dumps little hands as tools
We have displaced people 

movement on mass

Leaders deranged 
Exit Brexit the Trump card being played 
Wars between nations
People afraid
Walls being built to keep refugees out

Cages being built to keep refugees in

Children separated from parents

Displaced people living in tents

Wake up now! 

Love is calling... 
Love is always calling...
We are that love...

We forget who we are…

Over identified with limited senses defined by what we see

Yet we are co creators in this joint reality

We have a CHOICE to do it consciously 
Remember we are human BEINGS not human doings 
the quality of your BEING will determine your Action
Like I said remove your self limiting sanctions 
Inspired action creates lasting change 
Reactive minds put us back in the cave 

Ask yourself NOW
Is your life inspired?
Will you stop and take a look
and  move beyond  protesting on Facebook ?
When you see another suffer 
What do you do ?
When you sense injustice 
Does it inspire you to move ?
Ask yourself NOW how can you serve another?
Ask yourself NOW is my neighbour my brother ?
Don't look for the twig in your brothers eye and miss the log in your own 
Don't fight your battles thorough social media and forget those close to home 

Wake up now 

Love is calling... 
Love is always calling...
We are that love...


So rise above all you have ever known and respond to what we are now being shown 
Be inspired to bring about change 
Start with your OWN HEART and the things within range 
BE the change you want to see
Give thanks for ALL you have and choose to be FREE. 
Love one another 
It's a a simple choice 
Don't be a puppet be a voice 


The only conclusion to the spiritual journey in this world is service to one another through the vibration of LOVE 

Remember ....

Love is calling... 
Love is always calling...
AND WE ARE THAT LOVE...