Illusions of Lust

I don't want to be fooled by the illusions of lust

to lose myself in someone else

to create a reality where there is no trust...... in oneself.

I don't want the lies, rules and ties

treading me down, making me drown

in my own fears...... no tears

I don't want to be walking on eggshells

and relating a story that never tells

the truth

I don't want any promises of love

that come from the ego and refuse to let go

causing confusion.....disillusion

I don't want raw sex, lacking in feeling

to waste my time stealing ....energy

I don't want to participate in what was love turned to hate

or to move on someone else's path

reaping only the aftermath

I don't want to run your race

to look for the jack and turn over the ace......for what?

I don't want to look to you

to fill the void that resides inside of me

I don't want distractions, reactions to words

bordering on absurd

high expectations and stilted relations

I want freedom of expression..........

Leanne 1996